KPN Ep 14: gotta love all that angst

[Feb. 19th, 200912:13 am] finally get to some thoughts out of my head. this episode was... wow. seriously, the best, and my favourite episode thus far. truly no other genre does drama and angst like a kdrama. and it's just too perfect for the Hana Yori Dango story. and for the first time since the start of the drama, i actually cried. not hysterically, but i shed one of those "i can't believe this is happening-it's so amazing-rip my heart into pieces but i'll love this anyway" crying. lol, that' was pretty long, but that's exactly how it was. pretty much everything that i loved about episode 13 was everything i loved about episode 14. of course there was more there for me to love. a lot more tension, and so everything from episode 13 intensified. first there's Jan Di with her F3. and i call them that now, cause it's no longer just Ji Hoo and Joon Pyo that care about Jan Di, but also Ee Jong and Woo Bin. it`s no longer a factor whether Jan Di`s with Joon Pyo of not. the fact of the matter is they`ve become friends with her, and grown to care about her. in episode 13, the three knew that she wanted to see him, and so encouraged her to go look for him. but then, when they themselves go to Macau, seek out Joon Pyo to tell him that Jan Di`s here to see him, and then to have him give a rats whether she`s here or not, they got upset. they knew how hard it`s been for her, and whether he`s their friend or not, they don`t like how he`s now treating her. they haven`t suddenly turned their backs on Joon Pyo. it`s just that he`s being the biggest ass in the world, and they know that Jan Dì doesn`t deserve to be ignored like she`s nothing. the basketball court scene. that's excactly what they do. when Joon Pyo finally shows them how uncaring he that Jan Di's come to see he, they let him have it. well, more like Ee Jong let him have it. i'm glad he hit Joon Pyo, and i'm glad he called him a coward. i still would like for Ji Hoo to hit him, but i'm glad he didn't this time. i'm hoping it'll happen later (similar to the scene in the manga where Rui socks Doumyouji at the airport). anyhow, back to Ee Jong. if your womanazing friend thinks your an ass, you're an ass. that scene alone shows so much: just how big an ass Joon Pyo's being like, how much the 3 others are disgusted with Jan Di's treatment, and that Ee Jong is a big softy at heart. they treat Jan Di so well throughout the past two episodes. case in point, after they see Joon Pyo and meet Jan di by the bridge. after discussing him, Woo Bin brings up playing hide-and-seek. it was so endearing. it's like their own way of distracting Jan Di, and cheering her up. then of course, there's Ji Hoo; Jan Di's main source of strength and support through this mess. who could ask for a better friend than him. he worries and cares about her so much, i'm starting to hurt for him. at certain points in the episode, i wanted Jan Di to just forget Joon Pyo and take Ji Hoo. i'm mean, he's doing everything he can for her, although he himless thinks he's doing nothing for her. trust me Ji Hoo, compared to Joon Pyo, you're doing everything. you managed to have Joon Pyo seen Jan Di and then you took her out for a day, to cheer her up and try to distract her from thinking about him. hell, even you just being there for her is doing more than Joon Pyo at this moment. Ji Hoo's just... all win. his kindness towards her makes me get all choked up inside and is so much to the point that it kind of hurts my heart. some of my favourite Ji Hoo moments: comforting Jan Di as she weeps for Joon Pyo Ji Hoo and Jan Di's day and our OTP, Jan Di and Joon Pyo i honestly don't know who i loved more in this episode, nor do i know who i cried more for. even if they had only one scene together this entire episode, the whole time, i could still feel the love they share for each other. they were still very much together. regardless of what's seperating them, their feelings for each other just can't disappear. they're both so tortured and emo and in pain for each other, but yet, they both remain strong. both, really unbelievable. honestly, even i went through half of what either of them had to deal with, i would have already unravelled. watching them their scenes, honestly ripped my heart to shreds. their one and only confrontation in this episode. it was killer. mind you, this was before we found out about Joon Pyo's cirsumstances for treating for Jan Di the way he was, i was really hating him. he was so cold. so, so cold. and Jan Di, she was so desvastated. Joon Pyo sure did his job of playing the jerk perfectly. his eyes, where in episode 13, although he ignored her, you can see something in his eyes, in this scenes, all i could see was coldness. that was probably the most painful part. i know his words hurt, everytime he said something, you could see Jan Di falling more and more apart. but i think when she looked at him, and his face didn't waver, she believed what he was saying, that he truly wished to erase her from his memory and his life. and that's what did it for her. she was pretty much defeated at that point. for him it was easier to ignore her when she wasn't around. but the moment she showed up at Macau, everything was winding down to this meeting. before he met her at the bridge, you can he's already becoming tortured by what he probably will have to do to her. like he says when he's playing golf "nothing's working out the way he wants it to" but it looks like Joon Pyo wasn't as uneffected and as big a jerk as he was behaving. he's probably hurting as much, and if not, just a little more than Jan Di. his evil, wicked mother put him up to what he did. her guilty tripping him, using his father's death to keep him working with her, and her threat to Jan Di's life is keeping him away from her. he's probably been kicking himself all morning for saying what he did to Jan Di. there's no doubt that he wants her. he wants to love her and be with her, but can't. if i may say one thing about evil mom, its really unnerving that she's pretty well uneffected by her son's torturted and miserable state. =S now after all this, our poor woobies are crying for each other. both flashback to their happier times, and break out into tears. Jan Di is amazing. Hye Sun, your Makino is amazing. your crying was, wow, top class. lol, everytime i saw Jan Di cry, i hurt and cried with her. she sincerely looks like her heart just died. or better yet, Joon Pyo just ripped her heart out and trampled all over it, over and over again. the gondala scene was seriously painful. and seeing the memories she has of him, his relentless pursuit of her, and now seeing him treat her like dirt, i wanted to beat Joon Pyo some, the hyocrite. but of course, i can't completely hate on Joon Pyo. it's really for me to do so when he's not on screen and all i see is Jan Di's heart broken face. but when Joon Pyo comes up on screen... i feel even more misery for him. misery for what he's lost, and is loosing. misery for what he wants but can't have. misery from having an uncaring and cold mother who doesn't seem to care that you've finally found the love of your life. misery for how he has to hurt the one person he's ever truly cared about in order to protect her. *dies* can you tell i love and feel for him. lol, no matter how much i hated and ragged on him earlier, i still die for him and his messed up self. *thinksimprobablyabiggerhypocritethanJoonPyo* the scene in the office killed me like Jan Di on the gondala did. his smug witch of a mother thinks her son's given up Jan Di. nope. sorry hun. that ain't happening anything in this or a million lifetimes. now watching Joon Pyo watch (what i think) is a slide show of pictures of Jan Di was hard. it was so sweet and i loved it, but it was hard. he looks at each photo of her pained, with so much emotion and love. and just when he's about to loose his resolve, he sees him younger self with his deceased dad. i was a little weirded out at first that his dad was so nice to him... but i kinda like it this way. it makes sense that he wants to withhold the promise to protect the company and his mother and sister that way. and i'd have to say, this is probably the most complex Doumyouji i've seen in all dramas. the amount of conlict and emotion he had in that scene alone was more than the other Doumyouji's. and oh, his crying! oh his crying hurt. but it was so, so good! i feel all winded now. that episode was, a lot of somethings. i secretly hoping they keep the angst up for at least 2 more episodes before they bring back Jan Di and Joon Pyo. i do want my OTP back asap, but a little more drama couldn't hurt? it'll probably make my heart grow even fonder of Jan Di and Joon Pyo.